when its over

how is it that things are winding down so quickly?

i'm already done with my ap art portfolio, which i was rushing and worried would not happen. the senior art show has already passed, my final display of the creativity which sprang from room 262 and made academia bearable the past three years and made my life, whether you know it or not, way different, way more dimensional, and way better. i should upload my art sometime. most people haven't seen it. but i'm not looking for self-importance, nor recognition. it's just a big part of me. especially since a lot of them are self portraits. i think i know who i am more now, how cliche does that sound?

and today is my ap stats test. basically the last time i'll have to use my knowlege from my favorite academic class this year, with my favorite teacher from throughout my high school careeer. last night, i studied. i haven't seriously studied in a long time it seems. it was almost refreshing, seeing as senioritis has taken over my immune system lately. it reminded me of the nerd i was/am in highschool.

then thursday is ap english.


weird thing is, idk if any of these ap's will mean anything to my future but... each of them very well could. i love art. love it so much. and want to maybe minor in it, or go into advertising or something arts-y thats a legit professional career, like an art director for a company like apple, designing cool product displays and eye-catching marketing. and stats, i very well could be going into business, and we all know all the applications of statistics now! and english, i must admit i love writing... creatively. not like essays and term papers, ew, but like about my life, about experiences, about what's going on. i can write a killer speech, i can write effective stories, i can relay a story for the newspaper quite alright.

where will i be in four years?




It's not fair
To find you there
Waiting on
I don't care
I care
Way too much

Wait and see
That you are inside of
The places that you knew you love
The only time you'll ever trust
You are done
It's all been done

It's not fair
to find you there
waiting for me
I dont care
because I care way too much

Wait and see
That you are inside of
The places that you knew you love
The only time you'll ever try
You are done,
It's all been done