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Thursday, June 10, 2010
Monday, May 10, 2010
stress-free finals?
knock on wood, finals are not stressing me out. i somehow came to a realization that "this too shall pass" and finals will be over in a week and a day and i'll be able to breathe easy. so why not keep breathing easy now? i just am in a mode of acceptance that i will study, write, read, do problems, review, type, and such from when i wake up until i go to bed for the next week and a day.
then i will pack up my things. say goodbye... to some things forever, like my room, newton campus, the newton bus, stuart dining hall (until i visit maybe once next year)... and to some things just for the summer, like my friends, classes, chestnut hill, and carrying a backpack that weighs a hundred pounds.
i was really sad about a week ago about all of this. i didn't want summer to approach, i didn't want to go to Worcester. i didn't want to go back to no job or plan or reason. But now i realize i'm going back to: my best friend, my family, moxie, my home, my bed.
i also might have a sorta plan for the summer: i might volunteer at Dress For Success Worcester in the marketing department. how awesome will that be? knock on wood. no pay, but will be doing something good, get experience, good resume booster, too.
and old navy... i dont think i can handle it. not fun. not challenging me. maybe i'll just try to babysit mad lot. tell old navy i can only work a couple days a week. or look for another job. i dont know. whatever. all will work out.
then i will pack up my things. say goodbye... to some things forever, like my room, newton campus, the newton bus, stuart dining hall (until i visit maybe once next year)... and to some things just for the summer, like my friends, classes, chestnut hill, and carrying a backpack that weighs a hundred pounds.
i was really sad about a week ago about all of this. i didn't want summer to approach, i didn't want to go to Worcester. i didn't want to go back to no job or plan or reason. But now i realize i'm going back to: my best friend, my family, moxie, my home, my bed.
i also might have a sorta plan for the summer: i might volunteer at Dress For Success Worcester in the marketing department. how awesome will that be? knock on wood. no pay, but will be doing something good, get experience, good resume booster, too.
and old navy... i dont think i can handle it. not fun. not challenging me. maybe i'll just try to babysit mad lot. tell old navy i can only work a couple days a week. or look for another job. i dont know. whatever. all will work out.
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
what!?
in two days, I will be done with my freshman year classes.
in two weeks, I will be done with my freshman year finals.
in two weeks, I will be done with my freshman year.
WHAT!????
in two weeks, I will be done with my freshman year finals.
in two weeks, I will be done with my freshman year.
WHAT!????
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
the end of ELP, for this year
last night was the closing banquet for ELP, the Emerging Leader Program at Boston College, which I have been a member of this whole year. it blows my mind that this year is almost over; i did not believe the current facilitators and Mer, the dean who runs the program, when they said April would be here before i knew it. and April is here, and ELP is over.
the banquet was nice, it was beneficial to reflect back on all of the memories from the beginning of the year via the great slideshow and facilitators' talks. I almost forgot about all of the fun stuff we did throughout the year, beginning with silly icebreakers in the dustbowl, the retreat at Camp Burgess including canoe races and fire drenching race, duck tours, group outings, as well as great speakers, socials, and meetings. Plus i met one of my best friends, Sarah, through the program, and 59 other peer acquaintances, in addition to a meaningful relationship with one of the deans that will, i'm sure, serve me well in the future.
but... it's only over for now.
i applied, interviewed, and was offered the position as a sophomore facilitator for next year in ELP. i didnt tihnk i'd get it. those who did get it were quite surprising, to be honest, in many cases. and i was pretty apathetic about whether i would get the position in the end or not while waiting for my response. but of course i knew i had to try.
but now that i got the position i know that feeling of apathy was simply because i didnt want to get my hopes up. i dont know why i discredit myself so much sometimes. im really excited for the position now, especially after last night. i cant wait to move in two weeks before classes for training, to meet 50 incoming students, to get closer to 9 other sophomores that are facilitating with me, to find out who my direct facilitator partner is, to hold ELP lunches, plan group outings, lead meetings, force freshmen to do embarrassing icebreakers, and have a wicked awesome time on the retreat again. i'm glad i have a place at BC set for me for next year again, just like i did this year. but next year's place seems even more promising and exciting.
with that, i again say i acnt believe freshman year is nearing its end. i have only a few weeks until finals, which is insane in my mind. this year seems like it just began yet ive been here forever in a sense that this is my home now.
even though i've had a lot of struggles this year, with a lot of things, namely calculus, roommate search, other friends, and conquering self esteem in this new environment (still in process), i know i don't regret coming to BC at all. and im really excited that two more kids from my high school that are seniors now are coming to BC next year.
the banquet was nice, it was beneficial to reflect back on all of the memories from the beginning of the year via the great slideshow and facilitators' talks. I almost forgot about all of the fun stuff we did throughout the year, beginning with silly icebreakers in the dustbowl, the retreat at Camp Burgess including canoe races and fire drenching race, duck tours, group outings, as well as great speakers, socials, and meetings. Plus i met one of my best friends, Sarah, through the program, and 59 other peer acquaintances, in addition to a meaningful relationship with one of the deans that will, i'm sure, serve me well in the future.
but... it's only over for now.
i applied, interviewed, and was offered the position as a sophomore facilitator for next year in ELP. i didnt tihnk i'd get it. those who did get it were quite surprising, to be honest, in many cases. and i was pretty apathetic about whether i would get the position in the end or not while waiting for my response. but of course i knew i had to try.
but now that i got the position i know that feeling of apathy was simply because i didnt want to get my hopes up. i dont know why i discredit myself so much sometimes. im really excited for the position now, especially after last night. i cant wait to move in two weeks before classes for training, to meet 50 incoming students, to get closer to 9 other sophomores that are facilitating with me, to find out who my direct facilitator partner is, to hold ELP lunches, plan group outings, lead meetings, force freshmen to do embarrassing icebreakers, and have a wicked awesome time on the retreat again. i'm glad i have a place at BC set for me for next year again, just like i did this year. but next year's place seems even more promising and exciting.
with that, i again say i acnt believe freshman year is nearing its end. i have only a few weeks until finals, which is insane in my mind. this year seems like it just began yet ive been here forever in a sense that this is my home now.
even though i've had a lot of struggles this year, with a lot of things, namely calculus, roommate search, other friends, and conquering self esteem in this new environment (still in process), i know i don't regret coming to BC at all. and im really excited that two more kids from my high school that are seniors now are coming to BC next year.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
post-appalachia and rooming fiascos
i love Barren Springs, Virginia. i could write for hours about my experience there. i won't, because i know i'll leave out thousands of details either way, and i'd rather make a few main points:
Faith is a wonderful thing, and the people of Barren Springs had faith unlike I have ever in my life witnessed.
Hope is another wonderful thing, and the people of Barren Springs, depite their circumstances, had immense hope, and gave me great hope.
Love is the most wonderful thing, and from the second our group met the first member of the Barren Springs community, we were loved, and we fell in love.
I witnessed a community truly care for each other, truly appreciate the help of our group beyond what we deserved, truly act selflessly, truly extend warm welcomes, and truly trust our good intentions. I got to meet a man named Sam, the leader of the volunteer community in Barren Springs, who is possibly the nicest, most caring man I have ever met, who gave me one of the warmest feelings I have ever had in my entire life when he told me I was like his daughter (and meant the world to me that he messaged me on facebook today just to say hello). I got to leave my mark, physically, on Barren Springs by doing what i love most, painting, on the walls of an elementary school gym a eagle representing the school's mascot, named for BC. I got to meet 18 other BC students just as passionate about helping others as I.
And now, back from surviving comfortably two 14 hour bus rides, showering only twice, sleeping on the floor most nights, and eating amazing southern cooking, playing with adorable kids, helping build a church, growing my appreciation for country music (and southern accents) and getting to know countless amazing people from Virginia and BC all in one week...
... i can honestly say i was inspired to continue getting involved, meeting people, and extending a helping hand. Because the help I gave was only a tiny fraction of the impact the trip had on me.
Barren Springs, I will be back some day. I promise you that.
AND NOW... on to the less fuzzy stuff.
Rooming was this past week. and it was beyond hell. friends don't come in convenient packages of 8 or 4, let me tell you.
Once upon a time, someone asked me to room with her, months ago. perhaps november. come january, it must have slipped her mind. then comes along another friend, who invites me to join her group, inconveniently adding up to seven. we did not get one of the three seven-men apartments on campus. then comes along person 8, who was drama from the start, but good enough for desperate us, but who ditches us 30 minutes before registration time was over for 8-men, thus disallowing us to even try. then there were 7 again, who all met for dinner and tried to find another 8th so we could break up into two 4s. but bickering occurred and the entire entity dissolved. a thousand facebook messages, emails, texts, and tears later, three risign juniors shoot me an email inviting me to join with them for a 4-man. wonderful, until the housing selection system crashes as does email while our selection time comes and goes. but finally the next day, today, the system was back up, reslife worked things out, and i am destined to Edmunds 323. Four-man, full kitchen, bathroom, common area, two bedrooms. LEGIT.
who cares if i dont know the chicks? i will get to know them. ones from woosta, the others from boston. i get along with older kids better anyways. and 2 of my appa friends are on my floor, and one on the floor below me, woop woop.
all is well in the end.
thank God for the Luck o' the Irish <3
Faith is a wonderful thing, and the people of Barren Springs had faith unlike I have ever in my life witnessed.
Hope is another wonderful thing, and the people of Barren Springs, depite their circumstances, had immense hope, and gave me great hope.
Love is the most wonderful thing, and from the second our group met the first member of the Barren Springs community, we were loved, and we fell in love.
I witnessed a community truly care for each other, truly appreciate the help of our group beyond what we deserved, truly act selflessly, truly extend warm welcomes, and truly trust our good intentions. I got to meet a man named Sam, the leader of the volunteer community in Barren Springs, who is possibly the nicest, most caring man I have ever met, who gave me one of the warmest feelings I have ever had in my entire life when he told me I was like his daughter (and meant the world to me that he messaged me on facebook today just to say hello). I got to leave my mark, physically, on Barren Springs by doing what i love most, painting, on the walls of an elementary school gym a eagle representing the school's mascot, named for BC. I got to meet 18 other BC students just as passionate about helping others as I.
And now, back from surviving comfortably two 14 hour bus rides, showering only twice, sleeping on the floor most nights, and eating amazing southern cooking, playing with adorable kids, helping build a church, growing my appreciation for country music (and southern accents) and getting to know countless amazing people from Virginia and BC all in one week...
... i can honestly say i was inspired to continue getting involved, meeting people, and extending a helping hand. Because the help I gave was only a tiny fraction of the impact the trip had on me.
Barren Springs, I will be back some day. I promise you that.
AND NOW... on to the less fuzzy stuff.
Rooming was this past week. and it was beyond hell. friends don't come in convenient packages of 8 or 4, let me tell you.
Once upon a time, someone asked me to room with her, months ago. perhaps november. come january, it must have slipped her mind. then comes along another friend, who invites me to join her group, inconveniently adding up to seven. we did not get one of the three seven-men apartments on campus. then comes along person 8, who was drama from the start, but good enough for desperate us, but who ditches us 30 minutes before registration time was over for 8-men, thus disallowing us to even try. then there were 7 again, who all met for dinner and tried to find another 8th so we could break up into two 4s. but bickering occurred and the entire entity dissolved. a thousand facebook messages, emails, texts, and tears later, three risign juniors shoot me an email inviting me to join with them for a 4-man. wonderful, until the housing selection system crashes as does email while our selection time comes and goes. but finally the next day, today, the system was back up, reslife worked things out, and i am destined to Edmunds 323. Four-man, full kitchen, bathroom, common area, two bedrooms. LEGIT.
who cares if i dont know the chicks? i will get to know them. ones from woosta, the others from boston. i get along with older kids better anyways. and 2 of my appa friends are on my floor, and one on the floor below me, woop woop.
all is well in the end.
thank God for the Luck o' the Irish <3
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Pre-Appalachia
"May God bless you with the discomfort at easy answers, half-truths, and superficial relationships--
So that you might live deep within your hearts.
May God bless you with anger at injustice, oppression, adn exploitation of people and resources--
So that you may work joyfully for justice, equity, and peace.
May God bless you with tears to shed for those who suffer from pain, rejection, starvation, and war--
So that you may reach out your hand in comfort, changing pain to joy.
And may God bless you with the foolishness to think that you can make a difference in the world."
Leaving in about two hours for Barren Springs, Virginia for a week during my Spring Break with the Appalachia Volunteer group. See y'all when I get back.
So that you might live deep within your hearts.
May God bless you with anger at injustice, oppression, adn exploitation of people and resources--
So that you may work joyfully for justice, equity, and peace.
May God bless you with tears to shed for those who suffer from pain, rejection, starvation, and war--
So that you may reach out your hand in comfort, changing pain to joy.
And may God bless you with the foolishness to think that you can make a difference in the world."
Leaving in about two hours for Barren Springs, Virginia for a week during my Spring Break with the Appalachia Volunteer group. See y'all when I get back.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
i miss my friends from home :o(
but i am two days, four classes, two mid terms, one book, one and a half art projects, and some homework away from SPRING BREAK! a.k.a. the next two days will be hellish, but worth it.
i'm going to Barren Springs, Virginia with Appalachia Volunteers of Boston College to live a week with an underprivledged community and help out in a variety of ways. i'm really excited but nervous for the 13-ish hour bus drive, the possibility of not being able to bathe for a week, and that my back will break from sleeping on the floor for seven nights. but the pro's will outweigh the con's i'm 100% positive.
i cant wait to meet new people.
i cant wait to get away from campus.
i cant wait to be to a place ive never been before.
i cant wait to help people in a tangible, real way.
but i do miss my friends and family and kinda wish i was going home next week like a lot of people are, but it'd be silly to miss such a good opportunity such as Appalachia when i know my friends and family will be there for me when i get back, just like theyre always there for me. plus, melissa came up last weekend and my parents are coming up this weekend before i leave, so it'll be A.O.K.
the ALC Ball was gorgeous. it was at the Fairmont Copley. also known as somewhere i could only dream of having my wedding someday. astonishing.
the dj could have been better, the dance floor was kind of scattered even with 800 or so people there. i didnt dance with any guys. but i turned down two ;o) and i danced a lot with just people i knew. i went with my 'BC big sister' who i love.
then melissa came the next night and we sat in my room and it was great, no jokes haha. best friend status 100%.
i also really want to find a better job this summer. i want to keep old navy a couple days a week but do something more real and with less retail bullshit. but i havent stumbled upon anythign yet.
talk to you soon.
love.
but i am two days, four classes, two mid terms, one book, one and a half art projects, and some homework away from SPRING BREAK! a.k.a. the next two days will be hellish, but worth it.
i'm going to Barren Springs, Virginia with Appalachia Volunteers of Boston College to live a week with an underprivledged community and help out in a variety of ways. i'm really excited but nervous for the 13-ish hour bus drive, the possibility of not being able to bathe for a week, and that my back will break from sleeping on the floor for seven nights. but the pro's will outweigh the con's i'm 100% positive.
i cant wait to meet new people.
i cant wait to get away from campus.
i cant wait to be to a place ive never been before.
i cant wait to help people in a tangible, real way.
but i do miss my friends and family and kinda wish i was going home next week like a lot of people are, but it'd be silly to miss such a good opportunity such as Appalachia when i know my friends and family will be there for me when i get back, just like theyre always there for me. plus, melissa came up last weekend and my parents are coming up this weekend before i leave, so it'll be A.O.K.
the ALC Ball was gorgeous. it was at the Fairmont Copley. also known as somewhere i could only dream of having my wedding someday. astonishing.
the dj could have been better, the dance floor was kind of scattered even with 800 or so people there. i didnt dance with any guys. but i turned down two ;o) and i danced a lot with just people i knew. i went with my 'BC big sister' who i love.
then melissa came the next night and we sat in my room and it was great, no jokes haha. best friend status 100%.
i also really want to find a better job this summer. i want to keep old navy a couple days a week but do something more real and with less retail bullshit. but i havent stumbled upon anythign yet.
talk to you soon.
love.
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