where have i left off? well i'll cut to the fun stuff.

thursday i shadowed b.c.... love it of course. (did i mention they gave me an extra four grand?! i'm so excited, it keeps getting better and better and better)then went to via with my family for a pre-birthday dinner.

friday i turned 18! yes, i am now an adult. i went to buffumville lake with yessy, adrieanna, melissa, evan, hung, and donald. it was sunny, beautiful, and we just chilled on the sand, played wiffle ball, and... stuff. lol. a few shades of tan and a few dares later, we went out for icecream then met up at yessy's later that night for some more good times, with some more good friends (i.e. graceoday&jose&randomasian). i stayed up all night because people were being ridic loud and talkitive, playing neverhaveiever and telling stories. i definitely left out some crucial details of this day but, i'm not writing them all on this blog, sorry!

...then i woke up mad early from my <2 hours of sleep to do a senior class fundraiser (go figure). it was liek a zillion degrees and i was dying but i went to w.p.i. after with grace and don to see four year strong play a free, outdoor show that was pretty cool... and there were a few gorgeous guys that didn't hurt the atmosphere. quick nap, redbulls, and off i was to the senior scavenger hunt where yessy, melissa, evan and i kicked assssssss beyond compare. just for a few things we did... yessy kissed a black guy, melissa swam in a lake with her clothes on, evan stole a reflector out of someone's yard, and i taught someone to soulja boy. fun stuff.

sunday sucked with homework, most of which i didnt do.
monday sucked too. im ready for school to end just about.
tuesday was senior skip day and a bajillion degrees. a ton of people showed up, and it was a good time.. until we got kicked out by authorities. oh well! then me melissa yessy michelle and i just drove around (hi black mazda... was it a mazda? lol. hi people IN the black car!)

andddddddd today was a normal day. school, senior buisiness, classes, tennis, bla bla.

hey, i need to work on my graduation speech soon, really bad. shoot.




oh and umm. am i overthinking somethings? i think i prob am. i tend to do that. oh well.


;o) byeee :o*

i wish

vacation was still here? and i want to relay my life to you, but i'm doing an essay for ap lit on a wednesday at five a.m. once again. ttyl!

closing in

on the last five minutes of my childhood.
what do i have to say for myself, you ask?
dayyyyyyyyyyyyummmmmmmmmmm.

stoked

about a lot of things

-BC gets more exciting to me everyday. i just met two med students at this party. one went to bc and one's sister is a senior at bc. both absolutely love(d) it. the one that went there gave me her info so i could talk to her about her experience, professors, any questions i have, etc etc etc which is wicked good. still have failed to find anyone who has not liked it there, or anyone who knows anyone who didnt like it. can't wait to shadow thursday.

-18th birthday is on friday(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) can't wait. well ya i can but i can't believe i'm gonna be an actual adult. i want to get a piercing. and do other eighteen year old things, even if that's lame and cliche... because i can!

-vacation. i actually took a NAP today. i never do that! i'm finally letting myself relax. woooooo. and chillin with my friends is always good..... even if it consists of sitting in the back of a car all squished or winning a boomerang at a shitty arcade and going to the world's biggest mcdonalds playplace for like < 2 minutes.

p.s. grace if you read this i miss you :-*

fly like an eagle

i went to BC's admitted eagle day today. it was gorgeous. everyone was ridiculously nice from the get-go. the very first person i met was some admissions officer guy who was so sweet, and happy with his job, and so appreciative of us, of me. the last person i met was this other prospective student from chicago who seemed wicked cool, like i'd want to be her friend when we're both there, and she was wicked nice as was her mom. and! everyyyyyone congratulated each kid for getting in. i thought that was nice. like they finally appreciate the hard work high schoolers do!

i felt comfortable there. it was a very welcoming, warm environment. the whole jesuit philiosphy is so moral and just GOOD. i think my values would go a long way there. and i'd grow a lot as a person.

the academics are amazing. the presentations on the business school, communications and marketing were really appealing to me. even more appealing was the help available to figure myself out and what i want to do. doesnt hurt the business school is in the prettiest building there.

it was a text book definition of a "college." there were kids playing frisbee on the greens. everyone was wearing either northfaces or bc gear. the campus is a legit campus. the dorms are dorm-y (and pretty nice for dorm-y dorms). everyone was smiling and happy looking. all the kids i saw were having a good time, and said they loved it.

and the green line is rightt there. so i could hop in and show kids not from the area around boston. and get an internship there. and a job in the future. :o)

and study abroad! i want to study abroad!

the people were not snobby like i thought they'd be. i didnt see anyone in gucci stillettos or armani suits walking around on the regular, the style some people warned me of (maybe thinking i wouldnt keep up? ha, lol.) they were NORMAL looking. like not weird british twin boys who dont talk or strangly white chicks from the suburbs with orange leggings, polka dotted skirts, and floral ten-sizes-too-big sweaters like i met at BU. and there is diversity at BC! which i didnt think there was. and im glad there is because i'd get bored otherwise.

oh and did i mention hot guys? in every possible direction i looked in. true story.




long stroy short: i'm cancelling my shadowing appointment at BU that i had for tuesday.


i am now a BC Eagle.

28 days

to kick the habit
28 days to let you go
28 days and I'll be on my own.




how convenient, "sorry" by ashley simpson sings about the 28 days left in the school year, and exactly my sentiments at the moment.

thanks girrrrl.

this is why

i love my family.
my brother is closing on 21. i'm weeks away from being 18.
yet, my parents decided to throw us an easter egg hunt.
see, danny's working in the a.m. so they decided to do it tonight so we could all be together.

how cute is that?


i dont know if you've noticed but.. i've been really down lately. not friday, because i was on the go in boston and out with yessy eating sushi etc etc etc but in school last week, then today. just for whatever reason i've been down, plain and simple. why, i couldn't tell you honestly the real reason because i'm not clear myself. but as i walked in my house at like 1130 from babysitting to find a bright pink plastic easter egg on the table with my name on it, and one next to it bright blue for danny, leading to successive easter eggs all around the house, i was just so childishly happy. it was so cute. my family's great.
brady-status. love it.


btw,
happy easter. i'll be all dressed up with my cousins, aunts, uncles, broter, parents, and family friends tomorrow at my aunts house, eating deliciously, catching up, and playing wiffleball later on i'm sure. pretty excited.

peace out.

BU:pro's and con's

Pro's:
-i love the metropolitan campus
-there's so many people to meet
- very very very diverse. i think i'd learn a lot about people there
- very impressed with the dean of college of arts and sciences
- very very very impressed with the dean of students
- i want to live in a brownstone when im an upperclassman
-so many options!
-i'd really focus on my school work (see the fifth bullet in "con's for clarification)
-the girls seem normal, like i'd fit in with them
-b.u. beach = heavenly
-walking distance form newbusry street
-wicked cool clubs and organizations that i'd want to join
-wicked cool events to go to
-wicked good sports teams (mainly hockey) that i'd be a superfan of
-terriers are cute
-the t is right there
- i know some people that might go there too.
-i got pretty good financial aid (but see the seventh bullet in "con's"...)
-it was my first college crush. love at first sight.
-core curriculum to get me on track
-good work study programs to make $$
-travel abroad = wickkedddd goooodddd
-community projects sound so cool and fun and rewarding
-theres a chapel on campus
-its in boston. my fave city ever.

Con's:
-the campus isn't a closed campus.
-i'm scared i might get lost in the crowd
-is the college of arts and sciences right for me? i tihnk i just applied there because "undecided" was a concentration option. and i'm definitely undecided.
-the normal dorms are only so-so
-THE GUYS ARE FREAKIN' HIDEOUS (surprisingly) other than like two okay-ish white guys and like three okay asian guys and maybe like one latin guy. what the hell. i can't meet a future husband like that. they werent even trendy!
- i know some people that might go there too. (this could be bad as well. not bad but hold me back from meeting people? prob not but i'll list it here too to be safe.)
-i'd leave with double the loans than i would if i went to b.c.
-maybe love at first sight is artificial



HMMMMM.
can't wait to go see BC next sunday. then shadow at both colleges.
expect more blogs

Nowww. i'm going to get sushi at baba with yessy.
only i would get up at 4 for a 6 a.m. train, walk around boston all day, then go out again at night.

I NEED A GIRLS NIGHT THOUGH so whatever <3

beautiful disaster

Mr. Bierfeldt died, former and may i say excellent principal of sullivan middle school.
i wanted to badly to go to his wake. he was such a good man, hardworking, knew everyone, cared about everyone, very intelligent.
my mom and i decided to go, even though it was my mom's birthday and i realize that's horribly depressing to do on your birthday.
we get in the car. drive to grove street. and the traffic is heavy.
turning the corner, we see a line of people standing outside of the funeral parlor.
and down the steps.
and onto the sidewalk.
and down the street,
and around the corner.
and down the next street.
and on and on.

that line would have been minimum three hours to just reach the funeral parlor's door.
if it was any other night, i would have froze my bum off in my heels and skirt.
but i couldn't tonight. but i tried.

i'm really glad that someone who is so deserving is so obviously appreciated. although it may have taken death for him to be recognized fully, its nice to see that so many people care.

and it made me realize something.
i'm only seventeen. i have a million things to do in my life. but i wanted to honor this person's life.
and for that, i thank my family. my family has raised me well. i dont even know who i would be without them. especially my mother, whose birthday is today. and i really love her and she does everything for me, even goes with me to a wake on her birthday.

hopefully i'll make it to the funeral tomorrow.
rest in peace, mr. bierfeldt.

and happy birthday mom..

four a.m.

doing homework? yea. this is so unlike me.
see, until about a month ago, i had a pretty strict "ten o'clock rule," setting ten p.m. as basically my personal deadline to have all my work done the night before it is due. and i abided by this rule almost religiously. this rule is null and void as of late. i've been staying up long hours. and i even woke up at four a.m. to finish a 3-5 page paper that i only wrote one short paragraph for yesterday. could it be that i'm just turning into everyone else with crazy highschool study habits? no, i know what it is...

senioritis. gotta love it.

i think i'll

go to boston.
scratch that. i know i will.

i LOVE boston. i can NOT wait to live there next year.
there's nothing to do in worceser, which leads to my friends and i driving around egging things and taking pictures at crappy worcester airport in the freezing wind. or daring people to swallow goldfish or kiss people they don't know.
won't lie, that $hit's fun sometimes. but i want a change...
and that change will come. really soon.

today i went to boston with my mom and some family friends. such a good time. shopped on newbury, walked a lot, ate at magiano's, shopped more at downtown crossing. oh yea, i saw an old homeless man piss on the commons, but OTHER than that, it was beautiful, even with the rain and clouds and wind.
i got a johnny cupcakes shirt. i got other cute clothes.
i got a clutch and this thing to put in my hair for prom. i specifically was shopping for prom shoes, but didnt find any i liked that werent a million dollars, so that's the only thing i really need to buy for prom now. that's coming up really soooon.
oh and i mentioned how i want to do a semester abroad eventually. my mom looked like she was going to cry. i'm gonna miss my mom when i go to college. we're really close. ask melissa. she'll get what i mean.

night!x3

first time

i think i've ever been kicked out of anything? probably.
i got kicked out of tennis practice. oh well.
it wasn't only me. it was a lot of girls i think. i left too quick to notice.
for the reasons of: "laughing" (sorry.) "being with our boyfriends"(which i don't have. just boys that are friends.) "having a grand old time" (sorry again.) and not supporting the team by watching one specific match closely (sorry girls, really.) sure learned my lesson.

basically f my l.
not only did i get kicked out of practice, but i forgot my shoes at home so i sped and almost killed myself a few times to get home and back to practice on time. what a waste. and how about donnely's class was just ridic it made my had hurt. an hour and a half of senseless debating. and. spring fling-- we've sold 28 tickets. and its tomorrow. cool. its so not gonna happen unless we sell 100+ tickets tomorrow. good luck me. why does everyone hate the senior class? whatever, because adrieanna and i are going to go out dressed up tomorrow night even if this dance we've worked hard on gets canceled.

oh AND.
i know something you don't knowwwwwwww.
and you're gonna regret something you did because of this somethingggggg.
ha!


all better :o) byyyye