magis means more

i am two classes and four finals away from being done with first semester. this is so surreal.
in a way, this semester flew by. i feel like i fit in all i could do, yet i wish i did more. i wish i joined more clubs, went out more, went to more campus events, and met more people. but my schedule was always so packed and there simply are not enough hours in a day or days in a week.
on the other hand i feel like i've been here forever. my room feels like home (on most days). my best (bc) friends i can not fathom just meeting three or so months ago. the monotony of a highschool academic 7:15-1:45 school day seems eons ago.
i can't figure out my feelings on this semester yet. i've had my ups and downs. i guess once i'm about to leave to come back home to worcester on the 18th i will know.
but a few things are for sure. i know i do not regret my choice of BC. it has kicked my ass but it has also held my hand the whole way. i also plan on setting out some legitamate goals for christmas break, the new year and next semester. stay tuned. and i've learned a lot and adjested well, i must say. and i've done so far pretty good in my classes. knock on wood. i just need to grind through the next week until finals are over a week from today.

one more thing. i need to get what i want. that's vague, but if i write it here it's a reminder to myself that i need to take some action. good things don't just come to people. why am i always so scared?

happy end of the semester to all you college friends. and happy few weeks before vacation to my highschool buddies. good luck and dont be as stressed as i am! enjoy the christmas season a little like i also am. and let it snow.