reliving the past

is not fun. but it only makes me more excited for the future; where I'm going.

And, as of now, where I'm going might be my college dream, the first school i visited, which was love at first sight, exactly what i want and exactly what i need, exactly where i want to be physically and exactly where i want to go mentally... and exactly what i thought i couldn't have.

but i got into BU.
and i got decent guap.









and now i'm 9-0-1. still waiting on holy cross (boo, i'm already ruling you out because i hate your snobby white-bread-ness) and the three ivies: yale (eh, i'd rather go to bc or bu than that), harvard (i wanna grow up to be just like the harvard lady who interviewed me with her louis vitton bag &c., so i'm hopeful), and brown (which i am in love with almost as much as i am with bu and i know i'd fit in well there and i could take classes at risd which would be sick, so i'm double hopeful.)

but i have my options now. my best offer for money for ones i want to go to is suffolk (full tuition! and good location). i love bc (but dont know how much dinero ig ot yet). uconn's nice, not my fave. smith is such a good school (but all chicks and idk how i'd deal with 24-7 drama like that since i cant even deal with it six hours a day at school with only half the people surrounding me girls.) i basically ruled out due to my other options being so good assumption, emmanuel, clark(even though i got $$), and umass amherst(even though i may still consider their really good honors program).

i'm glad this work is paying off... finally.



on a less serious note, i hung out with melissa tonight and shes a riot i just die laughing every second because she comes out with the funniest things. and she knows so much about me without even trying, like how i prob have GAD and how my mom and i have a close relationship and how i get nervous in uncomfortable situations haha. then her and these two guys just HAVE to bring up my past and make me ultra uncomforble, but its all good. i'm just glad i've changed. and hope i have good enough friends to kick my ass if i ever act like i did back in the day. if you dont know what im talking about never mind.


peace!